Friday, July 23, 2010

Thank all of you

I have been thinking about this blog in particular for hours, if not days. Thinking that I want to thank all of you who have been so supportive of me in the past 5-6 months, thinking that I want somewhere to acknowledge you for being such wonderful friends. I don't even know how to begin...my mind is rushing with names, ppl from church, family in California, family in England, friends...good friends...some of you I have yet to meet in person. (Shawna ;-) )
I have been so touched by all your compliments recently...thank you beyond words. It means a lot to me to have your support through this weight loss journey and lifestyle change.

You know, I am very much myself on Facebook. I've come to terms with...well...if you dont like my facebook posts...oh well, big deal. And I don't mind that. God made us all different, with different personalities and different quirks and we're not gonna like everyone or be liked by everyone. I've certainly been taken down THAT road in this past year...not a nice one (at ALL!) to travel down but we've all got to realize this at some points in our lives.

I have found the last 4 months to be difficult, easy and so many different things at different times. And now I am now embarking on my second journey through fitness. I can do so much more than I could 3 months ago, I can bend, I can stretch, I can RUN! And I am loving it! I am so happy in my skin! BUT I'm not done yet, no way! I'm no where near where I want to be and I am absolutely LOVING the journey there!

I've got to go but I'll be posting very soon again! xxx

Monday, May 24, 2010

Weird, weird day...but good

So I've already written and deleted many sentences on this particular blog. I want to write about yesterday but it was a very...thoughtful day, a very weird but thoughtful day.

Yesterday morning I got up at 7.00...or rather I set the alarm for 7, actually got up at 7:30. I hit the snooze button three times and then woke up to what I can only describe as God asking me to get up and worship him...in exercise. I've done that before, when I couldn't do anymore work outs for myself or even my family. I then worked out as worship and praise to my God. This was different though, I could exercise for myself and the thought of me being fit and leaving behind the 'old me' who ate everything in sight and wanted more more MORE.
This was a different feeling, I knew that God was asking me to get up and exercise. I've never really experienced this before. Sure, I've had God ask me to do things, talk to someone, do something for someone...read His word and things...but exercise? I shrugged it off and got up and dressed and worked out, didn't really think anything else of it.
We went to Church, took the boys to nursery and went to worship. God was speaking to me throughout worship, nudging me and asking me to listen to Him. I listened and He had some very interesting things to say.
We sang some songs that I'd never heard before, they said things like "I'm tired of the old me, I want the new me to shine through and show you..." and "You never let go, you're there through the pain and happiness, thank you"...and so on. The songs didn't say that word for word but that's what I heard and remembered.
I thought about why I originally started to work out and wiped a few tears away with a sad smile. I thought about where I am now and where I want to be and how much I wish I were there right now. God was telling me through these songs that He wants me to turn away from the 'old me' who eats everything in sight and turn towards Him. He was telling me to trust Him completely and continue doing so well in working out.
I must say, I do have my thoughts as to why God is telling me to continue exercising but I don't feel that now would be the right time to say my thoughts on this particular issue. It's still too fuzzy and not clear.
When I was exercising, almost 9 years ago now...I didn't want anyone to see me because I do exercises a little different to other ppl, not 'normally' as some might say. I will write more about this at a later time but I did have a stroke when I was 8years old. It was a very serious stroke and ever since I have been trying my hardest to hide the fact that I had a stroke. And exercise just shows it, right out there....my right hand is not doing what it's supposed to or whatever...

When I found out I was pregnant with twins I was first really excited, then really scared. How was I to handle one baby, let alone two? I would have to 'reveal' to the world that I do actually have some disabilities...well...it's now almost 2 years later and I feel (a little bit) more confident about showing the world that I am disabled because my kids are worth everything, and if their safety or cleanliness or even happiness depends on me showing that I'm disabled so be it.

SO all that being said...I'm going through an internal emotional roller coaster with exercise thing. Not so much when I walk or hike but when I work out by lifting weights or kick box or even do punches...heck even yoga. :-)
When people say they'd love to work out with me or 'I have a great DVD that we can both do together' I don't want to because that's sticking myself out there and showing them that I have something wrong with me, that I'm not 'normal'.

What does all this have to do with God asking me to work out? How do they correlate? I've been thinking a lot about people I could help, people who have had strokes...people who aren't your typical stroke victims. People who've had strokes when they were very young, or in their teens or even in their adulthood.
Recently God has been revealing that He has things to do for me in the community and the public. Not exactly sure what that is but if my God is taking me, it can't be a bad place. :-)

I've got all of these questions going around in my head, I've got so many things that I would ask God and have asked God. He just smiles and holds my hand and says He only wants me to worry about working out and getting fit.
It's frustrating and I don't quite know why...but I certainly do feel the passion and the fire to exercise and get really fit.

The other thing is that I don't feel I just want to get 'thin', like I did before when I was working out. I feel a NEED to get FIT...like really really fit. I feel a need to get fit so I know what to eat, I know what not to eat...and I've never felt that before. It's exciting but at the same time...I never thought I would feel that way...just like I never thought I'd be an athlete. (And still don't but you never know with God!) lol
So...yesterday was a revealing day and an interesting one. I don't know what God's doing through me but I'm totally willing to accept it.
Here we go!!!...watch this space :-)

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Michi's Ladder

This is Michi's Ladder, I am eating to carve my physique...like a beautiful, lean, strong, sculpture (lol well, I realize that sculptures don't eat but I'm sure they would...or even better it took a long time to sculpt them out of rock or even marble, so I'm sculpting myself. It'll take time but what's worth it that doesn't take time? :-)
I have been wanting a list of foods that I can and can't eat for a while now, and this is it! I have eaten from tier 1 and 2 only for the past week (how long I've know of this)...with the exception of one sliver of a sliver of chocolate cake...and I honestly believe that is all.

So Enjoy people.


Climb Michi's Ladder
Eat to carve your physique!
Michi's Ladder is a guideline, but we leave it to you to decide.If you only ate from Tiers 1 & 2, you would have a near-perfect diet!


Tier 1: The Pious Tier

Apples, with skin Carb
Artichokes Carb Protein
Arugula Carb
Asparagus Carb
Avocados Fat
Beans Carb Fat Protein
Beets Carb
Bok choy Carb
Boysenberries Carb
Bran Carb
Broccoli Carb Protein
Broccoli sprouts Carb Protein
Brussels sprouts Carb
Cabbage Carb
Carrots Carb
Cauliflower Carb Protein
Celery Carb
Cereal, whole grain Carb Fat Protein
Chard Carb Protein
Cherries Carb
Citrus fruits Carb
Collard greens Carb Protein
Cottage cheese, nonfat Protein
Cucumbers Carb
Egg whites Protein
Endive Carb
Fish, cold water (salmon, mackerel, sardines) Fat Protein
Fish, freshwater Fat Protein
Flaxseed Fat
Garlic, fresh Carb
Granola, raw,
no sugar Carb Fat Protein
Hemp seed Fat
Kale Carb Protein
Lettuce, romaine, green or red leaf Carb
Milk, nonfat Carb Protein
Milk, soy Carb Fat Protein
Muesli, raw,
no sugar Carb Fat Protein
Mushrooms Carb
Mustard Carb
Nectarines Carb
Oatmeal Carb Fat Protein
Olive oil Fat
Olives Fat
Onions Carb
Pears, with skin Carb
Peas Carb Protein
Peppers Carb
Plantains Carb
Prunes Carb
Radishes Carb
Raspberries Carb
Refried beans, nonfat Carb Protein
Rice, brown Carb
Salsa, natural, no sugar Carb
Seitan Carb Protein
Spinach Carb Protein
Squash Carb Protein
Strawberries Carb
Sweet potatoes Carb
Tea, green or black
Tempeh Carb Protein
Tofu Carb Protein
Tomato sauce, no sugar Carb
Tomatoes Carb
Vinegar
Water
Yams Carb
Yogurt, nonfat,
no sugar Carb Protein


Tier 2: The Happy Tier

Apples, skinless Carb
Bananas Carb
Blueberries Carb
Bread, whole grain Carb
Cantaloupe Carb
Cheese, nonfat Protein
Chicken, skinless white meat Protein
Coffee, black or cappuccino with nonfat milk Carb Protein
Corn Carb
Cottage cheese,low-fat Fat Protein
Cream cheese, nonfat Protein
Duck, free-range Fat Protein
Eggplant Carb
Fish, farmed Protein
Granola or energy bar Carb
Grapes Carb
Hummus Carb Fat Protein
Juice, fresh-squeezed with pulp, no sugar Carb
Kiwifruit Carb
Mangoes Carb
Meal replacement
bar Carb Fat Protein
Melon, honeydew Carb
Milk, 1% Carb Fat Protein
Nuts, raw Carb Fat Protein
Ostrich Fat Protein
Pancakes, buckwheat Carb Protein
Papayas Carb
Peaches Carb
Pineapple Carb
Plums Carb
Raisins Carb
Ricotta cheese, nonfat Protein
Soy nuts Carb Fat Protein
Soy sauce Carb
Squid Protein
String beans Carb Protein
Sunflower seeds Carb Fat Protein
Tortillas,whole wheat Carb Fat Protein
Turkey breast Protein
Vegetable juice Carb Protein
Veggie burger Carb Fat Protein
Venison, free-range Fat Protein
Watermelon Carb
Yogurt, no sugar Carb Fat Protein
Zucchini Carb


Tier 3: The Swiss Tier

A1 Steak Sauce Carb
Angel food cake Carb
Applesauce Carb
Bagels Carb
Beef, eye of round Fat Protein
Beef, London Fat Protein
Beef, top round Fat Protein
Canola oil Fat
Cheese, low-fat Fat Protein
Chicken, dark meat Fat Protein
Chicken sandwich,
broiled Carb Fat Protein
Chicken taco,
baked Carb Fat Protein
Clams Protein
Coffee, cappuccino with whole milk Carb Fat Protein
Crab Protein
Cream cheese,
low-fat Fat Protein
Eggs, whole Fat Protein
French fries, baked Carb
Fruit, dried Carb
Graham crackers Carb
Granola Carb Fat
Honey Carb
Jam or marmalade Carb
Jerky, turkey Protein
Juice, from concentrate Carb
Ketchup Carb
Lamb, lean Fat Protein
Lettuce, iceberg Carb
Lobster Protein
Mayonnaise Fat
Milk, 2% Carb Fat Protein
Muesli Carb Fat
Oatmeal, flavored Carb
Oysters Protein
Pancakes Carb
Pasta, plain Carb
Peanut butter, raw Fat Protein
Popcorn, plain Carb
Pork tenderloin Fat Protein
Potatoes, baked
or boiled Carb
Pretzels Carb
Refried beans,
low-fat Carb Fat Protein
Rice cakes Carb
Rice, white Carb
Sauerkraut Carb
Soup, canned broth Carb Fat
Steak, lean Fat Protein
Sweet-and-sour
sauce Carb Fat
Veal cutlet Fat Protein
Wine, red Carb
Yogurt, frozen,
nonfat Carb Protein


Tier 4: The Dodgy Tier

Animal crackers Carb
Beef, filet mignon Fat Protein
Beef, lean ground Fat Protein
Beef, sirloin Fat Protein
Beef Stroganoff Fat Protein
Beer Carb
Bread, refined flour Carb
Buffalo Fat Protein
Butter Fat
Caesar salad, with chicken Carb Fat Protein
Canadian bacon Fat Protein
Cheese (including bleu and goat) Fat
Chili Carb Fat Protein
Chinese food Carb Fat Protein
Chips, low-fat, baked Carb
Coconut Fat
Coffee, iced mocha latte with nonfat milk Carb Protein
Coffee, latte with whole milk Carb Fat Protein
Coffee cake Carb Fat
Crackers Carb
Grilled cheese
sandwich Carb Fat
Ham Fat Protein
Hot dogs, turkey Fat Protein
Ice cream, sugar-free or fat-free Carb
Jell-O Carb
Juice, sweetened Carb
Lamb chops Fat Protein
Lasagna, with meat Fat Protein
Macaroni and cheese Carb Fat
Margarine Fat
Meat loaf Fat Protein
Mexican food Carb Fat Protein
Milk, whole Carb Fat Protein
Muffins Carb Fat
Nuts, salted or roasted Fat
Peanut butter,
not raw Carb Fat
Pepper, stuffed Fat
Pizza, meatless or Hawaiian style Carb Fat Protein
Popcorn, with salt and butter Carb Fat
Pork chop Fat Protein
Potato salad or
macaroni salad Carb Fat
Pudding, with
low-fat milk Carb Fat
Reuben sandwich Fat Protein
Sherbet Carb
Shrimp Protein
Sloppy Joe, lean beef
or turkey Fat Protein
Soft drinks, diet
Soup, canned creamy Carb Fat
Spaghetti,
with meatballs Carb Fat Protein
Sub sandwich Carb Fat Protein
Taco salad,
with chicken Carb Fat Protein
Tortilla, refined flour
or corn Carb Fat
Tuna salad or
chicken salad Fat Protein
Vegetable oil Fat
Wine, white Carb
Yogurt, frozen Carb Fat Protein

Tier 5: The Newburg Tier

Alcohol, hard liquor
Bacon Fat Protein
Baked beans Carb Fat Protein
Beef, ground, regular Fat Protein
Beef taco, fried Fat Protein
Breakfast sandwich,
fast food Fat Protein
Cakes Carb Fat
Candy Carb
Cereal, sugared Carb
Chicken a la King Fat Protein
Chicken, buffalo wings
or nuggets Fat Protein
Chicken or fish sandwich, fried Fat Protein
Chips, potato or corn Carb Fat
Chocolate Carb Fat
Cinnamon bun Carb Fat
Coffee, mocha, macchiato, ice blended, frappé, triple caramel vanilla buzz bomb, etc. Carb Fat
Cookies Carb Fat
Cream cheese Fat
Creamed veggies Carb Fat
Creamer, nondairy Fat
Doughnuts Carb Fat
French fries Carb Fat
Gravy Fat
Hamburger, fast food Fat Protein
Hot dogs Fat Protein
Ice cream Carb Fat
Jerky, beef, pork,
or venison Protein
Juice, sugar added Carb
Lobster Newburg Fat Protein
Nachos Carb Fat
Onion rings Carb Fat
Pastries Carb Fat
Pies Carb Fat
Potato skins, fried Carb Fat
Potatoes, fried Carb Fat
Potpie Fat Protein
Refried beans,
with lard Carb Fat Protein
Salad dressing, creamy Fat
Sausage Fat Protein
Soft drinks, sugared Carb
Tater tots Carb Fat
Toaster pastries Carb Fat

Friday, May 21, 2010

Am I crazy...or just fat? ;-)

I've entitles this blog, "Am I crazy...or just fat?" because today I walked half a mile to a little fruit stand with the boys in their jogging strollers, bought some fruit then came back. This afternoon I worked my lil socks off to "Fat burning Express" with Tony Horton. Then when the kids were asleep in their beds I walked another mile with the dog. (While my husband was home with the boys of course).
Now, I've entitles this blog the way that I have simply because I want this STUPID fat off me! LOL It doesn't look good, doesn't suit me and to be quite honest it just simply doesn't belong! ;-) So, therefore, am I crazy...or just fat? I think a lil bit of both! :-) I still have 80plus pounds to get rid of and the more I can do to get rid of it the better!!!
I never thought I'd say this but I'm actually loving exercise, not sort of liking it, not even just liking it but absolutely loving it. I enjoy the air, the pace and also I love listening to my heart, feeling my heart and knowing that I'm getting stronger with every step that I take. I also know that every fit person out there was not born fit, they had to work to get there. Maybe some not as hard as me but I can assure you that everyone with muscles has felt the burn. They not only feel stronger but they also feel a sense of accomplishment and a sense of driven goals, as though they can do more. I believe with all my heart that they can. I can. You can too if you want to.

From my Face Book page from today:

Loralei Hallet just went for a mile walk with the boys in their jogging stroller to a fruit market just up the street. I bought lots of fruit including a cucumber. On the way back William was getting out the cucumber and saying "Coocumber" and looking back and smiling at me. He just had some and immediately said with a smile "Mmmm... delicious!!!" lol....Where do they get such language? Its hilarious, really it is!



Loralei Hallet went for a mile long walk today and exercised (hard)...sweaty and feeling good!


Connie Hurd
Go girl, I'm proud of you!

Loralei Hallet
Thanks Mom. I've worked really really hard at losing this weight and it's working very well...it's not down to your will as much as it is as much as you want to lose the weight. Last time I weighed myself (last thursday) I'd lost 10 pounds...I can't wait to see how much I've lost now! I have really been working out and also watching EVERYTHING ... See Morethat goes in my mouth...NO more cupcakes, chocolate or sweets. DO NOT eat after 8pm and curb the calories...it has been difficult but getting easier with time.
I'm actually following an eating plan in the power 90 book. If you're to get the most out of this program then youre to climb a 'ladder', called Michi's ladder. I'm sure you can get it on google. Anyway I haven't eaten anything at all in step 4 or 5 for the past week (as long as Ive been following it) and only in moderation 1 and 2 and just sometimes 3. So I'm doing good and I'm sure that I've lost a size or 2!!!
So I'm doing it healthily and l'm really FEELING the results! Who knows, I REALLY like this program and so I may even have abs of steel after this! LOL But thank you for the encouragement Mom! You rock!
Catrin Taylor
ok seriously, most of what I live on - which tends to seem reasonably healthy (cheese, fruit, chicken, pork, bread, pasta) is in tier 4. No wonder I only just manage to keep my weight steady! Thanks for the link, Lora, that's really useful guidelines to have (not that I'm going to manage to eat much better but it'll help me not get worse!!)
The ... See Moreother thing I struggle with is not eating after 8pm, cos so many days I get in at 9 or 10 not having really eaten except for a quick snack before class! But such is life. I am amazed every time you update at how well you are doing at this, it really is inspiring
Loralei Hallet
Aaaw thanks, yeah I know I was shocked when I read all that was in tier 1-5...but it is if you want the get most out of the program...but its REALLY healthy anyway. But i suppose that cheese (non low fat) is really fattening actually...*sigh* so i have it only on special occasions

Loralei Hallet Bring it! Come on fat me! Bring it on! You think you can beat me? Come on, bring it in the exercise ring, I'll beat you flat out (or fat out if you will hehee)!!!lol

Loralei Hallet
LOL I'm such a dork...but I like myself, that's what matters.
Catrin Taylor
we love you too

Loralei Hallet walked a mile this morning with the kiddo's in their jogging stroller, did non-stop exercises for 40mins this afternoon (tiring and VERY rewarding) and just walked the dog a mile at a very fast pace (speed walking with her butt up in the air, very funny!)...Moses is learning how to walk at a fast pace and not run...learning, not there yet...but learning:-)

Loralei Hallet
Moses keeps wanting to run but I'm not quite there yet. To be honest I don't think Moses is either, I think that after a block or two of running he'd be tired and want to stop. BUT this morning would have originally tired me out, then this afternoon I tired myself out by doing power yoga and non-stop exercises...then I go and take the dog for a power walk??? Am I crazy? Don't answer that one ppl, I already know the answer ;-)
















Thursday, May 20, 2010

Pheonix in Me, rising again!

This is about me. All about me. I by no means mean to sound cocky or impolite...but this is where the phoenix in me will rise again. This blog is all about my struggles, my pains and the hurdles I have to leap over to get fit again.
First of all, can I just say that this a sort of journal and you don't have to read along, you are more than welcome to but I do apologize now if I 'carry on' a bit.
This is for those of you who are struggling too, or are trying to get fit and healthy and find it difficult at times to avoid cupcakes or ice cream or yummy yummy foods like that. This blog is for me to look back at and see how much I've changed, how much not only the physical me's changed but also my emotional state of being.
I've been meaning to write a blog for quite some time now but just have never had the time and to be quite honest I didn't know the first thing about blogs when I started...(which was about 5 mins ago lol) :-D So this is gonna be a journey I can tell you that much!
I'm hoping to put my frustrations down, my joys and my victories..I am human so I will have a lot of frustrations.
I chose the name Phoenix in Me because my friend, Rick, is called PhoenixRising and he's my coach in Beach Body...and I thought what more of an appropriate name. Also it symbolizes so much...obviously. The phoenix in me will rise again...is rising again should I say! :-)
I'm not going to start out my blog by telling you all about me. I'll write about myself in my own time...and if you're reading this you probably already know a lot about me and are one of my friends on facebook or otherwise. If you don't know me that well, I'll tell you about me but I don't have time right now to sit down and explain all about myself. :-) I'm sure you understand!

What I will tell you is that I'm a mom of twin boys, almost 2. They are adorable and so much fun...but theyre also sooo very much work. I am married to a wonderful man, one who supports me in all I do...no woman could ask for someone who loves me as much as my man. And boy oh boy does he love me! When I get angry boy do I get angry and he's stuck with me...for nearly 6 years now. He says forever and always...and I think thorns and all! :-) So thanks Joel, love you!

I started to get fit because back in April ('10) I had a miscarriage. The pregnancy was a surprise to me and my husband but it was more than welcome! We were so excited at the thought of holding our newborn in November...I'll go into more detail later. But to get rid of the stress, to get rid of the frustration and anger...I had to do something. I was already planning on doing the HCG diet (some of my friends are doing that, if you don't already know about it just look up HCG diet on google and it'll pull up thousands of articles). This was before I found out I was pregnant, and afterward I was disappointed I couldn't but I knew that 'one day' I would get fit and skinny again.
When I found out that we'd had a miscarriage I had to do something...I had to kick and punch SOMETHING and I didn't much think that my husband would appreciate if he was my punching bag. I needed something to get my frustrations out and in my oppinion physical pain is a lot better than emotional pain. That something was to be the air in working out but boy oh boy was I gonna punch it with plenty of enthusiasm and frustration and plenty of grunts and screams! (as I was to find out later!...but screaming and grunting is actually good for you...as long as it's in the right context....lol)
So here we go....on a long journey, long but fun and exciting as hopefully we both change through exercise and thought.